but every time, i fill my cup, find a couch and just sit. i wait for someone else to sit down. wait for them to say something and then maybe have a conversation. it's not that i'm not having fun, just not the potential fun that is being presented to me.
how do people go places where they don't know anyone and feel comfortable?
so... i need to branch out, i need to join in on conversations when i have something to add to them, i need to stand up and wander around the party until i find a compatible 'yes' and start a conversation.
i need to not be an outsider.
I find it weird that you want to change. I'll admit I don't know you very well (just sorta stumbled in through your facebook)But from what I can tell.. You are not the "hey I need a billion friends from every scene" type of guy. You are not the "I'm going to make an effort to be social and outgoing" type of guy. You are simply Joe. You are happy with having a number of close friends who know, love, and appreciate you for who you are. You realize that you don't need to make an effort. Real friendship comes naturally. You are too cool to try too hard. You are a silent observer of the most interesting kind. Love yourself for that.
ReplyDeletethanks, who are you?
ReplyDeletecall me when you get this
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ReplyDeleteim not the same anonymous as above
ReplyDeletebut
do you ever have regrets? things you would take back?
of course. regrets are necessary for learning and knowing how to handle situations in the future. do you?
ReplyDeleteyeah i mean, i guess there are things i wish would have played out differently, and people i wouldn't have hurt sometimes
ReplyDeletebut branching out can be a bittersweet thing. like you can meet a lot of people, but a lot of times you end up with countless shallow friendships and relationships because not everyone can be worth your time, to be perfectly honest.
so im not sure what to say for what you could do about this branchin out thing but i'd say don't regret not branching out if you enjoy meaningful friendships. if branching out's not for you, leave it to someone who branches out easily to branch out to you. :)
just keep old friendships and relationships strong in the meantime, if you're good at that.
i agree with this last person.
ReplyDeletei mean has anyone ever just takena chance and branched out to you and made an impression? it can always happen
wish people weren't anonymous
ReplyDeletedo you miss her
ReplyDeletewho?
ReplyDeletewhoever you're tryingg so hard to meet new ppl to forget
ReplyDeletei don't need to forget anyone. i just feel like not being so shy lately.
ReplyDeletethis is strange. i don't like people asking me questions when i don't know who they are.
(THE FIRST ANONYMOUS PERSON)
ReplyDeleteI'm sure the other two anonymous people are referring to Katherine. It's probably HER trying to make you think of her. Or even your most recent ex possibly (Brooke, was it?). Only an ex would care so much and ask those types of questions.
I'm just someone who isn't very close to you IRL, and therefore has no right to comment on your life. However, remaining anonymous allows me to do so. Hope you don't mind.
How was your halloween in the end? Did you manage to "branch out"? Did you enjoy it?
yeah, i figured that stuff. i don't really appreciate discussing that type of stuff in such a public forum. that's not what i started this blog for.
ReplyDeletebut yeah, i don't ind your comments. they are nice.
my halloween was good. had some fun then got sick from candy (booze). overall a decent night
not everyone has a blog site or a website and can reply to your posts without going anonymous
ReplyDeletei wouldnt worry about who it was. not important.