feel like being alive for two decades now doesn't mean a thing. feel like changing my personal brand when i'm already ok with what i am. feel like staying what i am when i crave to be something different.
"do you ever wish you were somebody else?"
don't think i could ever trade my soul for gold.
met some yesses. feeling indifferent. not sure the best way to go about things.
"i am jet black, to the center" feeling unadaptive and cold to what my personality should reflect (me (as a human)(afterall))
feel like i am just acting a certain way because i don't know how to be myself. one of my new years resolutions was to be myself. but i, as myslef, don't talk to people. feel like my new years resolutions should be to 'be anything but myself.'
think with a resolution like that that i would meet more yesses, get better grades, write more authentic music, and be a better bro. never know who i am really. do u?
feeling lost among a world of "dont do this!" and "do that!" feel like creating an alter ego. keep the regular me for my family and close friends but bring out the handsome, dashing, cunning, outgoing, mustached alter ego when i leave home. feel like that would be in my best interest.
did i steal this from michael cera?
when you meet people, do you remember their names?
do you ever think about being someone completely different?
are you jet black?
would you trade your soul for gold?
what's your worth?
beer does interesting things
i hope you were writing this while you watched this:
ReplyDeletehttp://www.tonightshowwithconanobrien.com/video/clips/michal-cera-pt4-010810/1191504/?__cid=thefilter
I think I like your blog. It makes me think.
ReplyDeleteI commend you on your honesty.
I wonder WHY you don't feel like you're capable of being yourself. Do you have this problem with everyone or only certain people?
Perhaps you already ARE yourself, you're already showing your close friends your real self, but you feel as if you want to show MORE people this true self? Could that be the case, or do you truly feel as if you're acting as someone else, even with your closest friends?
I'm just wondering :)